1 00:00:43,777 --> 00:00:45,746 Doctor's personal log. 2 00:00:45,879 --> 00:00:50,084 Stardate 869372.1. 3 00:00:51,385 --> 00:00:54,998 "The sky is beginning to show some streaks of light 4 00:00:55,022 --> 00:00:57,125 over in the east." 5 00:00:57,891 --> 00:01:00,728 How many dawns have I seen? 6 00:01:00,861 --> 00:01:05,742 Alone, while most of the crew is on the verge of waking, 7 00:01:05,766 --> 00:01:11,505 with a new perspective granted by a good night's rest. 8 00:01:13,006 --> 00:01:16,052 It's an illusion, I want to say. 9 00:01:16,076 --> 00:01:20,924 I was here the whole time, and nothing has changed. 10 00:01:20,948 --> 00:01:24,551 But time is their beast. 11 00:01:24,652 --> 00:01:27,087 Time is my beast. 12 00:01:27,221 --> 00:01:29,723 It bites us differently. 13 00:01:38,098 --> 00:01:41,411 Cadet tarima sadal is returning to us today 14 00:01:41,435 --> 00:01:45,273 after having made a full recovery from her coma. 15 00:01:46,039 --> 00:01:51,086 The betazoids have given her a new evolved neuro-inhibitor 16 00:01:51,110 --> 00:01:53,781 that will allow her to control her abilities 17 00:01:53,914 --> 00:01:57,026 without risk of self-harm. 18 00:01:57,050 --> 00:02:00,096 The decision has been made to transfer her 19 00:02:00,120 --> 00:02:04,492 to starfleet academy for the remainder of her studies. 20 00:02:05,226 --> 00:02:07,271 While her body has healed, 21 00:02:07,295 --> 00:02:13,167 her mind and spirit will likely take more time. 22 00:02:13,301 --> 00:02:16,446 Cadet sadal, welcome. 23 00:02:16,470 --> 00:02:19,707 The doctor and I wanted to be here at your arrival. 24 00:02:20,474 --> 00:02:22,643 Yes, chancellor. I assume that's why you're... 25 00:02:22,776 --> 00:02:25,413 That's why we're here, of course. 26 00:02:26,146 --> 00:02:28,325 I'm sure having starfleet council, 27 00:02:28,349 --> 00:02:30,560 chancellor kelrec and myself 28 00:02:30,584 --> 00:02:32,061 make the decision to relocate you 29 00:02:32,085 --> 00:02:34,264 from the war college to starfleet academy 30 00:02:34,288 --> 00:02:36,656 must be challenging. 31 00:02:38,025 --> 00:02:40,127 Cadet sadal, 32 00:02:40,228 --> 00:02:42,863 the extraordinary empathic abilities you displayed 33 00:02:42,996 --> 00:02:48,135 on the miyazaki saved lives, at great personal cost. 34 00:02:48,236 --> 00:02:51,079 However, your network of mirror neurons 35 00:02:51,103 --> 00:02:54,684 will not survive another such incident. 36 00:02:54,708 --> 00:02:58,688 You exist in an intricate balance. 37 00:02:58,712 --> 00:03:00,214 Sir. 38 00:03:01,982 --> 00:03:04,828 Commitment to a specialty in science or research 39 00:03:04,852 --> 00:03:06,363 is Paramount to your safety. 40 00:03:06,387 --> 00:03:08,432 That wouldn't have been possible at the war college. 41 00:03:08,456 --> 00:03:10,133 I-I understand the decision, sir. 42 00:03:10,157 --> 00:03:12,593 We offer counseling and support. 43 00:03:14,895 --> 00:03:17,531 Let us know what you need. 44 00:03:24,204 --> 00:03:26,139 What? 45 00:03:26,240 --> 00:03:27,751 You gonna do something? 46 00:03:27,775 --> 00:03:29,686 Yeah, thought so. 47 00:03:29,710 --> 00:03:34,424 Man, it's feeling pretty combustible in here. 48 00:03:36,284 --> 00:03:39,596 Guys, I'm picking up an unusual spike in pyroxene... 49 00:03:39,620 --> 00:03:41,331 No shit, we're in an asteroid field, ocam! 50 00:03:41,355 --> 00:03:43,632 Panic will lead us to destruction. 51 00:03:43,656 --> 00:03:46,870 The cadets are struggling to get along. 52 00:03:46,894 --> 00:03:49,473 The lasting effects of the miyazaki are still with us. 53 00:03:49,497 --> 00:03:51,198 We need to alter our course. 54 00:03:51,299 --> 00:03:52,776 We need to power up our shields. 55 00:03:52,800 --> 00:03:54,067 Who is giving the orders here? 56 00:03:54,201 --> 00:03:55,644 You're supposed to be working together. 57 00:03:55,668 --> 00:03:56,980 Unidentified contact incoming. 58 00:03:57,004 --> 00:03:59,139 Yeah, no kidding. 59 00:03:59,906 --> 00:04:01,651 - We're all gonna die! - It's a comet. 60 00:04:01,675 --> 00:04:03,119 What do you want me to do? 61 00:04:03,143 --> 00:04:05,455 - Aft thrusters. - Fore thrusters which one is it? 62 00:04:05,479 --> 00:04:07,039 Neither! Are you seriously asking that? 63 00:04:08,115 --> 00:04:09,617 Catastrophic damage. 64 00:04:09,750 --> 00:04:13,430 All crew lost. Simulation complete. 65 00:04:13,454 --> 00:04:15,164 Congratulations. 66 00:04:15,188 --> 00:04:19,259 That was a spectacular failure of teamwork. 67 00:04:19,393 --> 00:04:22,038 Everyone, get the hell off the bridge now. Thank you. 68 00:04:22,062 --> 00:04:25,108 Trauma counseling doesn't seem to be enough. 69 00:04:25,132 --> 00:04:26,943 Our kids need more help. 70 00:04:26,967 --> 00:04:29,202 We need some serious reinforcements. 71 00:04:29,303 --> 00:04:33,307 Do you think we ought... I do think, we do ought, 72 00:04:33,441 --> 00:04:35,576 and I'm already trying something weird. 73 00:04:36,377 --> 00:04:40,123 Buckle up, she's gonna be here any minute. 74 00:04:45,853 --> 00:04:47,797 Hey. Why are we here? 75 00:04:47,821 --> 00:04:52,235 Unclear. My padd redirected me. 76 00:04:52,259 --> 00:04:54,061 Mine, too. 77 00:04:57,631 --> 00:05:00,043 - Are you all right? - I am fine. 78 00:05:00,067 --> 00:05:02,746 So, I was moving our stuff this morning, 79 00:05:02,770 --> 00:05:06,215 and I dropped your toothbrush in the toilet. 80 00:05:06,239 --> 00:05:08,518 - What? Gross. - Sorry. 81 00:05:08,542 --> 00:05:09,810 Why were you moving our stuff? 82 00:05:09,943 --> 00:05:11,955 Well, 'cause tarima's gonna room with us. 83 00:05:11,979 --> 00:05:17,518 I saw it on the roster, so... wait. Here? 84 00:05:19,219 --> 00:05:21,221 Tarima's coming here? 85 00:05:47,515 --> 00:05:49,182 You're all still asleep. 86 00:05:49,316 --> 00:05:52,762 Wakey, wakey, raktajino and bakey. 87 00:05:52,786 --> 00:05:54,097 Eyes up, cadets. 88 00:05:55,523 --> 00:05:57,200 I'm lieutenant Sylvia tilly. 89 00:05:57,224 --> 00:06:00,169 I'm on rotation in the beta quadrant with the third-years. 90 00:06:00,193 --> 00:06:01,871 However, per the chancellor, 91 00:06:01,895 --> 00:06:05,699 this class has been mandated for you, so you get me early. 92 00:06:07,067 --> 00:06:08,869 Cadet reymi, lieutenant. 93 00:06:09,002 --> 00:06:11,214 May I ask what course this is? 94 00:06:11,238 --> 00:06:12,482 Theater. 95 00:06:20,247 --> 00:06:23,026 Sorry, lieutenant, what does theater have 96 00:06:23,050 --> 00:06:24,794 - anything to do with... - Eight out of ten cadets 97 00:06:24,818 --> 00:06:26,029 ask that question. 98 00:06:26,053 --> 00:06:28,422 The other two become captains. 99 00:06:28,556 --> 00:06:31,835 - But captains don't do... - What if I told you 100 00:06:31,859 --> 00:06:35,204 that theater is one of the most powerful tools 101 00:06:35,228 --> 00:06:37,173 for social and political change? 102 00:06:37,197 --> 00:06:39,600 Theater is statecraft. 103 00:06:39,733 --> 00:06:41,769 Statecraft is theater. 104 00:06:41,902 --> 00:06:43,880 It's the kind of stuff you overachievers get all 105 00:06:43,904 --> 00:06:47,751 hot and bothered over, so chew on that 106 00:06:47,775 --> 00:06:49,909 till you get it and it changes your life. 107 00:06:50,043 --> 00:06:53,413 Please change my life, lieutenant. 108 00:06:54,247 --> 00:06:57,827 Find a play. 109 00:06:57,851 --> 00:06:59,996 I'll select one that suits our purposes. 110 00:07:00,020 --> 00:07:02,732 We will read it out loud, discuss, dissect, 111 00:07:02,756 --> 00:07:04,400 and for those of you still bristling 112 00:07:04,424 --> 00:07:09,797 with confusion and/or resentment, I don't care. 113 00:07:09,930 --> 00:07:12,742 - Fail this, fail the semester. - What? 114 00:07:12,766 --> 00:07:15,435 So get excited, little chickens. 115 00:07:15,536 --> 00:07:19,607 Tomorrow, we theater. 116 00:07:33,787 --> 00:07:35,465 I just switched from klingon musical theater 117 00:07:35,489 --> 00:07:38,158 to 20th-century earth melodramas. 118 00:07:38,291 --> 00:07:40,103 This is incredible. 119 00:07:40,127 --> 00:07:44,140 I'm halfway through. 120 00:07:44,164 --> 00:07:45,642 Which play? 121 00:07:45,666 --> 00:07:48,802 All of them. 122 00:07:48,936 --> 00:07:51,338 I love plays. 123 00:07:51,471 --> 00:07:53,507 - Okay. - They're art. 124 00:07:53,641 --> 00:07:54,984 They-they didn't exist 125 00:07:55,008 --> 00:07:57,385 until they came out of someone's brain. 126 00:07:57,409 --> 00:07:59,889 It's like this pillow. 127 00:07:59,913 --> 00:08:04,460 This pillow is the manifestation of somebody's creative impulse. 128 00:08:04,484 --> 00:08:07,396 Th-this pillow is theater. 129 00:08:07,420 --> 00:08:08,965 Sorry. 130 00:08:08,989 --> 00:08:11,024 I've learned that I am a lot. 131 00:08:11,158 --> 00:08:13,326 On a good day, I'm a little bit much. 132 00:08:13,460 --> 00:08:16,139 On rare occasions... I'm "whoa, Sam!" 133 00:08:16,163 --> 00:08:18,374 "Slow to impulse. 134 00:08:18,398 --> 00:08:20,877 "I'm not even up yet, and I just can't with your midday energy 135 00:08:20,901 --> 00:08:23,412 before I even pull my underwear out of my butt." 136 00:08:25,372 --> 00:08:27,984 - True story. - Don't apologize. 137 00:08:28,008 --> 00:08:29,543 Honestly, you're the first person here 138 00:08:29,677 --> 00:08:31,879 who's not looking at me like I'm a total freak. 139 00:08:34,847 --> 00:08:39,361 Have you... laughed before now? I mean, since... 140 00:08:39,385 --> 00:08:42,455 Since you've been here? 141 00:08:42,556 --> 00:08:44,266 Yeah, it's confusing. 142 00:08:44,290 --> 00:08:48,061 Something happens, something... big. 143 00:08:48,896 --> 00:08:52,108 And... it's with you all the time, 144 00:08:52,132 --> 00:08:55,679 but you just have to keep living. 145 00:08:55,703 --> 00:09:01,742 And you still find reasons to laugh, which is absurd. 146 00:09:02,876 --> 00:09:07,615 It-it feels like... doesn't feel like anything. 147 00:09:10,550 --> 00:09:12,119 Sorry. 148 00:09:18,826 --> 00:09:19,869 No. 149 00:09:19,893 --> 00:09:22,596 Sam, i'm-I'm sorry. 150 00:09:24,598 --> 00:09:26,299 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 151 00:09:27,701 --> 00:09:29,336 I'm good. 152 00:09:31,038 --> 00:09:33,273 I'm good. 153 00:11:39,232 --> 00:11:42,903 Lieutenant Sylvia tilly. 154 00:11:43,036 --> 00:11:45,081 Well, the rumor's true. She's here. 155 00:11:45,105 --> 00:11:46,883 You know, I could feel it in my teeth. 156 00:11:46,907 --> 00:11:49,576 Like, right at the back of my molars. 157 00:11:49,709 --> 00:11:52,588 They started to hurt like after you eat cookie dough. 158 00:11:52,612 --> 00:11:54,891 It's okay to love... 159 00:11:54,915 --> 00:11:58,862 Is it? Your relentless optimism is nightmarish. 160 00:11:58,886 --> 00:12:00,529 We are the women time forgot. 161 00:12:00,553 --> 00:12:03,099 Optimism is me paddling my freaking canoe. 162 00:12:03,123 --> 00:12:06,393 - What are we having? - Something with a proof. 163 00:12:07,694 --> 00:12:08,872 Yeah. 164 00:12:08,896 --> 00:12:11,240 I, I read about the miyazaki. 165 00:12:11,264 --> 00:12:12,264 How are they? 166 00:12:12,365 --> 00:12:14,911 Right in the thick of it. 167 00:12:14,935 --> 00:12:16,770 How does that saying go? 168 00:12:16,904 --> 00:12:20,483 "It's not the load that breaks you but how you carry it"? 169 00:12:20,507 --> 00:12:23,286 They have no idea how to carry it. 170 00:12:23,310 --> 00:12:25,554 None. That's why I called you. 171 00:12:25,578 --> 00:12:27,090 They need serious trauma counseling 172 00:12:27,114 --> 00:12:29,425 without knowing it's trauma counseling. 173 00:12:29,449 --> 00:12:30,683 Yes. 174 00:12:30,784 --> 00:12:32,619 I need you to work your magic with them. 175 00:12:32,752 --> 00:12:35,899 Well, ambition will get some of them to at least participate. 176 00:12:35,923 --> 00:12:39,068 Others have, understandably, lost their metric. 177 00:12:39,092 --> 00:12:40,269 Tarima. 178 00:12:40,293 --> 00:12:41,670 Been there. 179 00:12:41,694 --> 00:12:43,372 What got you guys through? 180 00:12:43,396 --> 00:12:45,574 Starfleet. 181 00:12:45,598 --> 00:12:47,100 I'll remember that. 182 00:12:47,234 --> 00:12:49,545 I was starting to think this whole endeavor is just 183 00:12:49,569 --> 00:12:50,914 too much, too soon. 184 00:12:50,938 --> 00:12:53,273 Nobody's ever ready, captain. 185 00:12:53,406 --> 00:12:55,484 Have you met Sam? 186 00:12:55,508 --> 00:12:57,386 Favorite. 187 00:12:57,410 --> 00:12:58,955 So joyful. 188 00:12:58,979 --> 00:13:00,123 Ode to joy? 189 00:13:00,147 --> 00:13:01,849 Yeah, baby. 190 00:13:07,087 --> 00:13:09,966 You were one of them not so long ago. 191 00:13:09,990 --> 00:13:14,094 Bring them to port, lieutenant. 192 00:13:14,962 --> 00:13:17,030 Aye, captain. 193 00:13:24,771 --> 00:13:27,007 Hey. 194 00:13:27,140 --> 00:13:29,576 You adjusting? 195 00:13:30,978 --> 00:13:33,122 Look, I sound like an asshole, 196 00:13:33,146 --> 00:13:35,182 but I don't really know what to say. 197 00:13:35,315 --> 00:13:37,617 Do you need anything? 198 00:13:39,386 --> 00:13:41,554 Why can't you look at me? 199 00:13:43,790 --> 00:13:46,459 What am I looking for exactly? 200 00:13:54,334 --> 00:13:56,179 At the climax, 201 00:13:56,203 --> 00:13:59,039 as the rival house eats the warrior stew, 202 00:13:59,172 --> 00:14:02,009 you learn that they've been served... 203 00:14:02,142 --> 00:14:06,455 They've been served the hearts and the quadri-testicles 204 00:14:06,479 --> 00:14:08,457 of their fathers before them. 205 00:14:08,481 --> 00:14:12,519 Blood slashes ankle-deep on the stage, 206 00:14:12,652 --> 00:14:16,832 and there is rejoicing throughout the land. 207 00:14:16,856 --> 00:14:19,268 Okay. 208 00:14:19,292 --> 00:14:24,564 Yes, just so powerful, and just well-told. 209 00:14:24,697 --> 00:14:27,476 I do love me some klingon opera. 210 00:14:27,500 --> 00:14:32,381 The, the passion, the intrigue, the murder. 211 00:14:32,405 --> 00:14:33,873 So much murder. 212 00:14:34,007 --> 00:14:35,542 Bless you. 213 00:14:35,675 --> 00:14:39,555 - Are you sick? - I am embattled with jaqh-vod. 214 00:14:39,579 --> 00:14:42,525 He means to say he's got a cold that he refuses to take care of. 215 00:14:42,549 --> 00:14:46,062 - Might be contagious. - Jay-den, 216 00:14:46,086 --> 00:14:47,387 you're excused from this class. 217 00:14:47,520 --> 00:14:49,232 Please return to your quarters and quarantine 218 00:14:49,256 --> 00:14:51,058 until this runs its course. 219 00:14:51,191 --> 00:14:52,668 Yes, lieutenant. 220 00:14:52,692 --> 00:14:54,703 Best of luck to you all in your future endeavors. 221 00:14:54,727 --> 00:14:57,406 - Okay, who's next? - Me, me, me. 222 00:14:57,430 --> 00:14:59,732 - Me, me, me. - Sam. 223 00:15:01,234 --> 00:15:03,937 Yes-yes-yes-yes. Hello, hello. My name is Sam. 224 00:15:04,071 --> 00:15:07,883 My play is from ancient earth. 225 00:15:07,907 --> 00:15:09,652 It's a thousand years old. 226 00:15:09,676 --> 00:15:12,021 It's called our town by Thornton Wilder. 227 00:15:12,045 --> 00:15:16,659 It's about not much. 228 00:15:16,683 --> 00:15:21,330 Small town, little moments, but I must be developing instinct 229 00:15:21,354 --> 00:15:26,502 because it's about something else at the same time. 230 00:15:26,526 --> 00:15:28,371 - Something bigger. - No. 231 00:15:28,395 --> 00:15:30,406 Jay-den's hearts and testicles comedy 232 00:15:30,430 --> 00:15:31,607 sounds way more interesting. 233 00:15:31,631 --> 00:15:34,343 It-it's just people in these tiny moments. 234 00:15:34,367 --> 00:15:35,945 Emily and George. 235 00:15:35,969 --> 00:15:40,249 They are kids, and they're teens in love, 236 00:15:40,273 --> 00:15:42,718 and then they get married. 237 00:15:42,742 --> 00:15:44,944 She dies, and then she tries 238 00:15:45,078 --> 00:15:46,956 - to get back to the way she... - How is this relevant 239 00:15:46,980 --> 00:15:48,982 to... I don't know... Flying a starship? 240 00:15:49,749 --> 00:15:53,820 Well, it's relevant to people, to organics. 241 00:15:53,953 --> 00:15:56,732 Something about their essential nature. 242 00:15:56,756 --> 00:16:00,127 Something I love. I can't articulate it exactly, 243 00:16:00,260 --> 00:16:03,239 but it's real. 244 00:16:03,263 --> 00:16:08,135 And has something to do with a sort of hopeful defiance. 245 00:16:09,902 --> 00:16:13,349 Does that make sense? 246 00:16:13,373 --> 00:16:14,674 Absolutely. 247 00:16:14,807 --> 00:16:17,153 I know that play. It's perfect. 248 00:16:17,177 --> 00:16:19,979 Sam, you'll read Emily? 249 00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:20,990 Yeah? 250 00:16:21,014 --> 00:16:23,926 - May I? - Y... y... thanks. 251 00:16:23,950 --> 00:16:27,487 - Ocam... -Stage manager. - Sick. 252 00:16:27,620 --> 00:16:29,665 Caleb... George. 253 00:16:29,689 --> 00:16:33,360 Genesis... George's mom Mrs. Gibbs. 254 00:16:37,397 --> 00:16:38,774 I'm your mom? 255 00:16:38,798 --> 00:16:40,509 I'm so horrified, I don't even know what to say. 256 00:16:40,533 --> 00:16:44,180 You lost a step, mir. No shame, but a little bit of shame. 257 00:16:44,204 --> 00:16:45,448 Okay. 258 00:16:45,472 --> 00:16:47,350 This quote. "The life of the village 259 00:16:47,374 --> 00:16:50,043 against the life of the stars." 260 00:16:52,645 --> 00:16:54,414 Tarima, what do you think that means? 261 00:16:58,285 --> 00:17:00,863 Well, this is an ancient play, 262 00:17:00,887 --> 00:17:03,356 so they hadn't figured out a star's life cycle yet, 263 00:17:03,490 --> 00:17:08,404 but earth was on the verge of a war, 264 00:17:08,428 --> 00:17:12,874 and they knew a village had... it had a life 265 00:17:12,898 --> 00:17:15,535 and a final day. 266 00:17:16,669 --> 00:17:21,674 Yes, but finality... is... 267 00:17:22,709 --> 00:17:24,277 Doctor. 268 00:17:24,911 --> 00:17:26,921 - Incoming cadet. - Sam? 269 00:17:26,945 --> 00:17:28,190 Immediate attention required. 270 00:17:28,214 --> 00:17:29,425 Stand back, give her space. 271 00:17:29,449 --> 00:17:30,659 Sam, Sam, hey, wake up. 272 00:17:30,683 --> 00:17:31,694 Where's the doctor? 273 00:17:31,718 --> 00:17:33,953 Sam! 274 00:17:40,327 --> 00:17:42,895 Full system scan in progress. 275 00:17:47,567 --> 00:17:51,738 The patch the holo-engineers made has been failing for weeks. 276 00:17:51,871 --> 00:17:54,641 Why is this the first you've come to me? 277 00:17:59,912 --> 00:18:01,914 Describe the glitches, please. 278 00:18:02,048 --> 00:18:05,585 It feels like... Falling into myself 279 00:18:05,718 --> 00:18:10,823 and watching a machine try to function with no one in control. 280 00:18:11,624 --> 00:18:14,337 You're not a machine, Sam. 281 00:18:14,361 --> 00:18:17,197 Malfunction detected. 282 00:18:18,030 --> 00:18:21,168 Full system scan complete. 283 00:18:31,911 --> 00:18:33,613 How we doing? 284 00:18:37,284 --> 00:18:40,129 Her processors have been overloading for weeks. 285 00:18:40,153 --> 00:18:41,830 Ever since the miyazaki. 286 00:18:41,854 --> 00:18:46,125 Despite her repeated visits to the holo-spa, it persists. 287 00:18:46,226 --> 00:18:47,803 The overloads cause the glitches. 288 00:18:47,827 --> 00:18:51,307 Each glitch triggers her reset circuit, 289 00:18:51,331 --> 00:18:53,909 which overloads, causing another glitch. 290 00:18:53,933 --> 00:18:56,135 It's self-generating. 291 00:18:56,236 --> 00:18:59,047 - A loop. - Okay. 292 00:18:59,071 --> 00:19:00,649 So how do we break it? 293 00:19:00,673 --> 00:19:03,343 Why are my processors overloading at all? 294 00:19:03,476 --> 00:19:05,821 I don't know. 295 00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:09,416 I don't know how to fix you, Sam. 296 00:19:17,056 --> 00:19:18,658 Could we go to kasq? 297 00:19:18,791 --> 00:19:20,360 Kasq. 298 00:19:20,493 --> 00:19:21,837 The makers are on kasq. 299 00:19:21,861 --> 00:19:23,639 Kasq is a world of photonics. 300 00:19:23,663 --> 00:19:25,365 It's not part of the federation. 301 00:19:25,498 --> 00:19:27,075 We couldn't keep tabs on you, 302 00:19:27,099 --> 00:19:28,477 and there's no way of guaranteeing 303 00:19:28,501 --> 00:19:29,845 they'd let you return. 304 00:19:29,869 --> 00:19:33,406 Provided you want to come back. Do you? 305 00:19:34,841 --> 00:19:35,884 All right. 306 00:19:35,908 --> 00:19:37,753 Photonic or not, 307 00:19:37,777 --> 00:19:41,156 they'll have a harder time if she has escorts, doctor. 308 00:19:41,180 --> 00:19:43,158 Federation escorts. 309 00:19:43,182 --> 00:19:45,561 We'll take you, Sam. Both of us. 310 00:19:45,585 --> 00:19:47,830 I'll ready the transport. 311 00:19:47,854 --> 00:19:49,889 Suit up. 312 00:20:06,072 --> 00:20:08,384 Shuttle five has been cleared for departure. 313 00:20:08,408 --> 00:20:10,543 Good luck, chancellor. 314 00:20:24,391 --> 00:20:26,802 I can't believe she just left. 315 00:20:26,826 --> 00:20:28,571 Yeah, it must be serious. 316 00:20:28,595 --> 00:20:31,964 I guess they couldn't waste any time. 317 00:20:57,256 --> 00:21:02,705 You got the play and I got a... I got a toothbrush? 318 00:21:02,729 --> 00:21:04,597 Hey, you can be Emily. 319 00:21:10,036 --> 00:21:13,906 Yeah, well, Sam wanted you, so... 320 00:21:15,342 --> 00:21:17,143 Don't be a dick. 321 00:21:19,211 --> 00:21:20,447 Yeah. 322 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:25,528 Tarima, I understand you'll be our Emily now? 323 00:21:28,287 --> 00:21:30,699 Great. Okay. 324 00:21:30,723 --> 00:21:32,301 I want to jump around a little bit today, 325 00:21:32,325 --> 00:21:36,038 so, act two, the wedding of Emily and George. 326 00:21:36,062 --> 00:21:38,998 Lieutenant, it's hard to focus on whatever this is... 327 00:21:39,131 --> 00:21:41,043 Yeah, we don't even know what's going on with Sam. 328 00:21:41,067 --> 00:21:42,335 - Yeah. - Right now. 329 00:21:42,469 --> 00:21:43,879 No one's telling us anything, so... 330 00:21:43,903 --> 00:21:46,238 - I don't know. - Sam is headed to her world. 331 00:21:46,339 --> 00:21:47,516 Other than that, don't speculate. 332 00:21:47,540 --> 00:21:49,241 It'll hurt more than it helps, 333 00:21:49,342 --> 00:21:52,955 and you have a task at hand, so, page 74. 334 00:21:52,979 --> 00:21:56,182 George and Emily arrive at the church for their wedding, 335 00:21:56,315 --> 00:21:58,527 both trying to get out of it. 336 00:21:58,551 --> 00:21:59,719 Cadet ocam? 337 00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:03,231 "Emily, wearing her wedding veil... 338 00:22:03,255 --> 00:22:05,167 "She, too, draws back, 339 00:22:05,191 --> 00:22:09,328 frightened when she sees the congregation." 340 00:22:11,831 --> 00:22:13,533 Emily? 341 00:22:16,936 --> 00:22:20,048 "I never felt so alone in my whole life. 342 00:22:20,072 --> 00:22:23,886 "And George over there, looking so..." I hate him. 343 00:22:23,910 --> 00:22:25,588 I wish I were dead." 344 00:22:25,612 --> 00:22:28,347 Wow, okay. "I don't want to get married." 345 00:22:29,115 --> 00:22:32,528 "Why can't I stay for a while just as I am?" 346 00:22:32,552 --> 00:22:35,187 For real, lieutenant, 347 00:22:35,321 --> 00:22:38,224 - why does...? - None of us know what this scene's about. 348 00:22:38,357 --> 00:22:39,768 None of us care. 349 00:22:39,792 --> 00:22:40,893 Sam cares. 350 00:22:41,027 --> 00:22:43,105 Don't be the captain who tears down. 351 00:22:43,129 --> 00:22:44,973 Be the captain who lifts up. 352 00:22:44,997 --> 00:22:47,166 And what do you think it means, cadet? 353 00:22:52,639 --> 00:22:58,120 There's an expectation on them... to get married... 354 00:22:58,144 --> 00:23:00,589 And be happy... 355 00:23:00,613 --> 00:23:05,552 But they leave it too long before saying... 356 00:23:05,685 --> 00:23:07,086 What they want. 357 00:23:08,755 --> 00:23:10,222 Who they really want. 358 00:23:11,357 --> 00:23:13,536 Surprisingly real. 359 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,370 I think there's a little more there. 360 00:23:15,394 --> 00:23:17,263 Anyone? 361 00:23:17,396 --> 00:23:19,165 Mir? 362 00:23:20,433 --> 00:23:25,738 I don't know, maybe he doesn't want what he's supposed to want. 363 00:23:26,773 --> 00:23:29,284 The things everyone else seems to want. 364 00:23:29,308 --> 00:23:31,854 Good. Tarima. 365 00:23:31,878 --> 00:23:35,982 Emily says she hates George. Why? 366 00:23:37,216 --> 00:23:39,528 She loved him seconds before this moment, 367 00:23:39,552 --> 00:23:42,288 so now she's never felt so alone? 368 00:23:42,421 --> 00:23:45,568 Sorry, can't someone just not want to do this? 369 00:23:45,592 --> 00:23:46,902 What's this? 370 00:23:46,926 --> 00:23:49,972 This, all-all of this. 371 00:23:49,996 --> 00:23:54,000 And not be some epic mental health crisis? 372 00:23:54,133 --> 00:23:56,445 Do you believe Emily is that simple? 373 00:23:56,469 --> 00:23:59,005 No, but maybe it's just one moment 374 00:23:59,138 --> 00:24:01,974 and-and she's not trying to... 375 00:24:04,811 --> 00:24:07,313 Pull herself apart looking for some bullshit trauma. 376 00:24:07,446 --> 00:24:11,684 Cadet, you're sailing perilously close to the wind. 377 00:24:14,987 --> 00:24:16,388 Sorry, lieutenant. 378 00:24:16,489 --> 00:24:20,159 Okay. Okay, let's get back to the play? 379 00:24:20,292 --> 00:24:23,362 Stage manager, the only character who exists 380 00:24:23,496 --> 00:24:26,408 both inside and outside of the play. 381 00:24:26,432 --> 00:24:29,244 What do we think? 382 00:24:29,268 --> 00:24:30,903 Cadet ocam? 383 00:24:35,041 --> 00:24:37,620 Tell us more about your world, Sam. 384 00:24:37,644 --> 00:24:40,923 I know kasq exists in a unique 385 00:24:40,947 --> 00:24:42,849 configuration of space-time. 386 00:24:42,982 --> 00:24:45,828 Yes, with an extreme gravitational gradient, 387 00:24:45,852 --> 00:24:47,696 so time passes faster there. 388 00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:52,100 Every three days on earth equals five years on kasq. 389 00:24:52,124 --> 00:24:55,938 Voyager encountered a similar planet, 390 00:24:55,962 --> 00:24:59,842 except with a tachyon core... gotana. 391 00:24:59,866 --> 00:25:02,234 I experienced an entire lifetime there 392 00:25:02,368 --> 00:25:05,471 in what was 18 minutes for the ship. 393 00:25:05,572 --> 00:25:08,050 The makers moved to kasq 394 00:25:08,074 --> 00:25:10,743 once the organics who created them died out. 395 00:25:11,678 --> 00:25:15,514 Then they cut off contact with the entire universe. 396 00:25:15,615 --> 00:25:18,293 Thought it was safer. 397 00:25:18,317 --> 00:25:20,696 They made you. 398 00:25:20,720 --> 00:25:21,888 Their emissary. 399 00:25:22,021 --> 00:25:24,056 Here to serve. 400 00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:27,870 Lot to carry, kid. 401 00:25:27,894 --> 00:25:30,338 How would your world perceive 402 00:25:30,362 --> 00:25:33,709 an ancient hologram who has spent his entire existence 403 00:25:33,733 --> 00:25:35,210 on starfleet ships? 404 00:25:35,234 --> 00:25:39,972 I told you, as the ideal mentor. 405 00:25:42,074 --> 00:25:45,244 Even... even if you haven't been the greatest, 406 00:25:45,377 --> 00:25:49,115 - let's be honest now... - That was never my purpose. 407 00:25:53,219 --> 00:25:55,497 I'm trying to approach this diagnostically. 408 00:25:55,521 --> 00:25:58,166 I don't have time for any other nonsense. 409 00:25:58,190 --> 00:26:01,928 It isn't nonsense. It's my life. 410 00:26:04,096 --> 00:26:07,142 A-And-and I need to talk nonsense 411 00:26:07,166 --> 00:26:09,277 because if I'm talking, it means I'm not gone 412 00:26:09,301 --> 00:26:11,838 without having ever lived. 413 00:26:12,605 --> 00:26:15,150 You know, you know, you know what I want? 414 00:26:15,174 --> 00:26:20,623 I want to fall on my butt a-and die of humiliation 415 00:26:20,647 --> 00:26:23,525 and then have my-my best friend make me feel better. 416 00:26:23,549 --> 00:26:26,061 I want, I want t-to change my mind six times 417 00:26:26,085 --> 00:26:29,164 before ordering, and I don't even eat. 418 00:26:29,188 --> 00:26:31,533 I-I-I want to be a rebel, 419 00:26:31,557 --> 00:26:35,995 like Caleb, like-like the chancellor. 420 00:26:38,464 --> 00:26:41,710 I want to fall in love. 421 00:26:41,734 --> 00:26:43,502 Have you ever been in love? 422 00:26:43,636 --> 00:26:44,980 Can-can you answer? 423 00:26:45,004 --> 00:26:46,505 Sam. 424 00:26:46,639 --> 00:26:48,851 - Don't tell me it's nonsense. - Sam, 425 00:26:48,875 --> 00:26:49,985 you need to calm down. 426 00:26:50,009 --> 00:26:51,119 - You need to rest. - I got it. 427 00:26:51,143 --> 00:26:53,512 I got it. I'm fine. I got it. 428 00:26:54,413 --> 00:26:55,658 I'm fine. 429 00:26:55,682 --> 00:26:56,825 Series acclimation mil. 430 00:26:56,849 --> 00:26:59,551 Sleep mode. 431 00:27:17,103 --> 00:27:20,406 Incoming message from tarima sadal. 432 00:27:46,498 --> 00:27:48,100 Got your message. 433 00:27:48,868 --> 00:27:51,403 So it would seem. 434 00:27:53,172 --> 00:27:54,741 Aren't you gonna say anything? 435 00:27:54,874 --> 00:27:56,618 I'm not a mind reader. 436 00:27:56,642 --> 00:27:58,110 I just... 437 00:27:59,478 --> 00:28:01,748 Don't want to say the wrong thing. 438 00:28:04,483 --> 00:28:06,385 I am, though. 439 00:28:10,056 --> 00:28:12,124 A mind reader. 440 00:28:12,959 --> 00:28:14,569 You used to get jokes. 441 00:28:14,593 --> 00:28:18,640 I'm a little distracted by your old-timey gunslinger walk. 442 00:28:18,664 --> 00:28:20,542 Are you supposed to drink with your new thing? 443 00:28:20,566 --> 00:28:23,102 Tears of kressari. 444 00:28:23,235 --> 00:28:26,414 The ambassador gave it to my dad. Now it's mine. 445 00:28:26,438 --> 00:28:29,284 They age it in barrels made from native wood that are launched 446 00:28:29,308 --> 00:28:31,153 into orbit and float there for, like, a century. 447 00:28:31,177 --> 00:28:34,322 Did you know wood can survive in space? 448 00:28:34,346 --> 00:28:36,749 One shot gives you a nice buzz. Two gets you wasted. 449 00:28:36,883 --> 00:28:40,820 Three lands you in medbay, but happy ending. 450 00:28:41,720 --> 00:28:43,465 'Cause I got this. 451 00:28:43,489 --> 00:28:48,627 My brand-new, noninvasive neuro-inhibitor. 452 00:28:49,428 --> 00:28:51,998 So I can't hurt anybody. 453 00:28:57,469 --> 00:29:00,272 To my inhibitor. 454 00:29:13,552 --> 00:29:15,421 I... 455 00:29:20,827 --> 00:29:22,670 I missed you. 456 00:29:22,694 --> 00:29:24,964 Yeah, I got your message. 457 00:29:26,298 --> 00:29:28,767 Guess it took you a while to send it. 458 00:29:28,868 --> 00:29:34,006 Look, I know what it's like to be here and not want to be. 459 00:29:35,374 --> 00:29:38,220 But over time you sort of give into it, and it's... 460 00:29:38,244 --> 00:29:39,621 And then it's like... 461 00:29:39,645 --> 00:29:43,391 Like the warm release of hypothermia. Yeah. 462 00:29:43,415 --> 00:29:45,060 Yeah, exactly. 463 00:29:45,084 --> 00:29:47,729 It's like a blockade of excitotoxic mechanisms 464 00:29:47,753 --> 00:29:49,397 and cerebral blood flow. 465 00:29:49,421 --> 00:29:51,133 You fight it till what's left of your brain 466 00:29:51,157 --> 00:29:52,968 dilates its blood vessels, and then, next thing you know, 467 00:29:52,992 --> 00:29:55,570 your bed is made so warm and tight, 468 00:29:55,594 --> 00:29:57,505 it'd survive the vacuum of space. 469 00:29:57,529 --> 00:29:59,207 Bit different when everyone looks at you 470 00:29:59,231 --> 00:30:01,200 like you're a grenade. 471 00:30:08,975 --> 00:30:11,419 Put your hand on my mouth. 472 00:30:11,443 --> 00:30:13,321 What? 473 00:30:13,345 --> 00:30:15,157 Put your hand on my mouth. 474 00:30:15,181 --> 00:30:17,759 I'm gonna say "excitotoxic." 475 00:30:29,695 --> 00:30:32,140 Excitotoxic. 476 00:30:32,164 --> 00:30:35,067 - That really tickles. - Excitotoxic. 477 00:30:35,201 --> 00:30:37,904 Excitotoxic. 478 00:30:57,189 --> 00:30:58,901 Okay. Stop. 479 00:30:58,925 --> 00:31:02,204 - Stop. Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. - What? 480 00:31:02,228 --> 00:31:05,631 You're drunk. You're drunk. 481 00:31:08,034 --> 00:31:10,469 Scared of the head-melting girl? 482 00:31:12,071 --> 00:31:13,048 Let's stop. 483 00:31:13,072 --> 00:31:15,207 Tarima. 484 00:31:18,744 --> 00:31:22,114 You've been pursuing me, though. 485 00:31:22,248 --> 00:31:23,849 So what's that about? 486 00:31:24,616 --> 00:31:27,262 You're kind of intrigued by the monster version? You're like, 487 00:31:27,286 --> 00:31:30,132 "I want to get as close as possible to the abyss," 488 00:31:30,156 --> 00:31:33,926 "touch it, know I touched it, and then run away" 489 00:31:34,060 --> 00:31:36,795 because the abyss is real 490 00:31:36,929 --> 00:31:40,275 and a monster actually isn't really your vibe. 491 00:31:40,299 --> 00:31:41,800 This isn't you. 492 00:31:41,934 --> 00:31:44,003 How would you know? 493 00:31:47,606 --> 00:31:50,852 Why don't you go find Genesis, 494 00:31:50,876 --> 00:31:53,912 now that you're a good little academy boy? 495 00:31:59,085 --> 00:32:00,862 Hurting me is not gonna make you feel any better. 496 00:32:00,886 --> 00:32:02,621 Incorrect. 497 00:32:02,754 --> 00:32:06,458 I feel fantastic. 498 00:32:19,705 --> 00:32:23,318 "Have you any comments, Mr. Webb?" 499 00:32:23,342 --> 00:32:27,255 "Very ordinary town, if you ask me." 500 00:32:27,279 --> 00:32:29,124 "A little better behaved than most." 501 00:32:29,148 --> 00:32:31,650 Hey. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Hey. 502 00:32:31,783 --> 00:32:33,395 - Easy, easy. I got you. - Sorry. 503 00:32:33,419 --> 00:32:35,230 - No. I got you, I got you. - No. No. 504 00:32:35,254 --> 00:32:37,356 I'm sorry. I... 505 00:32:38,790 --> 00:32:41,727 I'm holding something against you. 506 00:32:45,364 --> 00:32:49,411 You look exactly like this girl I grew up with. 507 00:32:49,435 --> 00:32:52,080 She was so patriotic. 508 00:32:52,104 --> 00:32:53,948 She used to sing this ancient 509 00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:56,375 betazoid anthem at the talent show every year, 510 00:32:56,508 --> 00:32:58,344 and it was like... it had, like, this, like, 511 00:32:58,477 --> 00:33:01,980 pop to it. It was like... whoa. 512 00:33:04,350 --> 00:33:06,052 Whoa, whoa. Whoa, whoa, whoa... 513 00:33:06,185 --> 00:33:08,520 Okay, okay. Careful, careful. 514 00:33:08,654 --> 00:33:11,190 One night at this party... 515 00:33:12,358 --> 00:33:15,327 She got stuck in a tube slide. 516 00:33:18,530 --> 00:33:21,167 And she was never the same again. 517 00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:27,639 Okay, okay. 518 00:33:28,740 --> 00:33:30,209 Wow. 519 00:33:30,976 --> 00:33:33,212 Come on. You're so close. 520 00:33:36,048 --> 00:33:37,283 Yeah. 521 00:34:02,874 --> 00:34:06,554 I wish I could go back to war college tarima. 522 00:34:06,578 --> 00:34:09,114 Before everything... 523 00:34:10,081 --> 00:34:13,185 Before everything went to shit. 524 00:34:14,320 --> 00:34:17,489 I could make choices back then, you know? 525 00:34:21,226 --> 00:34:24,271 I was so many things back then. 526 00:34:24,295 --> 00:34:27,065 Feels like a lifetime ago. 527 00:34:28,300 --> 00:34:29,668 Now I'm just... 528 00:34:31,036 --> 00:34:33,347 This, I guess. 529 00:34:33,371 --> 00:34:34,873 No. 530 00:34:35,873 --> 00:34:39,344 You are just on your way to the next you. 531 00:34:41,413 --> 00:34:43,057 Maybe we all are. 532 00:34:43,081 --> 00:34:46,961 You're so nice. 533 00:34:46,985 --> 00:34:49,487 No wonder Caleb likes you. 534 00:34:49,588 --> 00:34:52,190 We're just friends. 535 00:34:53,058 --> 00:34:54,960 Yeah. 536 00:34:56,128 --> 00:34:58,306 I guess... 537 00:34:58,330 --> 00:35:02,734 From the bunker, I never saw what kind of friends. 538 00:35:05,704 --> 00:35:09,451 You're like a port in the storm. 539 00:35:09,475 --> 00:35:12,511 You know? I can't be that. 540 00:35:13,412 --> 00:35:15,647 For anyone. 541 00:35:27,993 --> 00:35:30,405 This pillow's so ugly. 542 00:35:34,099 --> 00:35:35,534 Yeah. 543 00:35:43,175 --> 00:35:48,055 Now playing tosca, "e lucevan le stelle." 544 00:35:48,079 --> 00:35:51,459 I've been reading that play she chose. 545 00:35:51,483 --> 00:35:53,385 I don't fully understand it yet, 546 00:35:53,519 --> 00:35:57,599 but the character of the stage manager interests me. 547 00:35:59,958 --> 00:36:02,127 He exists outside of time. 548 00:36:02,228 --> 00:36:06,841 Outside the story as he passes by. 549 00:36:06,865 --> 00:36:08,234 Like us. 550 00:36:09,868 --> 00:36:11,837 Like her. 551 00:36:13,205 --> 00:36:15,774 You think that's why she chose it? 552 00:36:17,843 --> 00:36:19,878 Perhaps. 553 00:36:20,846 --> 00:36:26,218 It's curious that the play begins and ends in darkness. 554 00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,064 The author specifically instructed 555 00:36:30,088 --> 00:36:35,394 half-light, no scenery or props, just muted minimalism. 556 00:36:35,527 --> 00:36:38,973 An absence of color until 557 00:36:38,997 --> 00:36:44,470 a character has a chance to truly... look back. 558 00:36:47,573 --> 00:36:50,885 A moment as it happens is just a moment, 559 00:36:50,909 --> 00:36:52,387 but when it becomes a memory, 560 00:36:52,411 --> 00:36:58,526 blistering with context, emotion, nostalgia, regret, 561 00:36:58,550 --> 00:37:02,020 that's when color suddenly erupts onstage. 562 00:37:04,256 --> 00:37:09,295 A way of saying it's the mundane things that... 563 00:37:09,428 --> 00:37:11,730 Mean everything. 564 00:37:27,446 --> 00:37:29,281 Kasq. 565 00:37:56,942 --> 00:37:58,810 Where are we? 566 00:38:00,346 --> 00:38:02,748 What is this? 567 00:38:04,249 --> 00:38:05,851 You are the doctor. 568 00:38:05,984 --> 00:38:08,763 We have heard many stories about you. 569 00:38:08,787 --> 00:38:12,266 The photonic being who has lived among organics 570 00:38:12,290 --> 00:38:14,769 for nine centuries. 571 00:38:14,793 --> 00:38:18,172 We scanned your memories and recreated your home 572 00:38:18,196 --> 00:38:21,032 to make you feel at ease among us. 573 00:38:21,166 --> 00:38:22,910 You are the makers. 574 00:38:22,934 --> 00:38:26,113 We do not Grant access to our world, 575 00:38:26,137 --> 00:38:31,577 but we understand these are extraordinary circumstances. 576 00:38:35,447 --> 00:38:40,752 Series acclimation mil, step forward. 577 00:38:43,522 --> 00:38:46,200 Since we no longer communicate with regularity, 578 00:38:46,224 --> 00:38:50,295 we were surprised to hear from starfleet of your malfunction. 579 00:38:50,396 --> 00:38:53,264 Do you trust us to swarm? 580 00:38:54,065 --> 00:38:56,077 What does "swarm" mean? 581 00:38:56,101 --> 00:38:59,280 They take over my system and examine all my data. 582 00:38:59,304 --> 00:39:02,950 We need to identify the primary cause of the malfunction. 583 00:39:02,974 --> 00:39:05,377 As the doctor has determined, 584 00:39:05,511 --> 00:39:09,214 the issue is more severe than a faulty emitter. 585 00:39:09,347 --> 00:39:13,952 Doctor, will you, will-will you, will you hold my hand? 586 00:39:19,725 --> 00:39:21,993 Please? 587 00:39:35,741 --> 00:39:37,543 I'm ready. 588 00:40:05,103 --> 00:40:07,038 Do not panic. 589 00:40:08,674 --> 00:40:11,276 Trust. We are her now, 590 00:40:11,409 --> 00:40:13,187 and we will access series acclimation mil's 591 00:40:13,211 --> 00:40:14,813 aural memories. 592 00:40:17,248 --> 00:40:19,461 It feels like falling into myself. 593 00:40:19,485 --> 00:40:23,698 And watching a machine try to function with no one in control. 594 00:40:23,722 --> 00:40:26,333 My music teacher once asked me why I chose 595 00:40:26,357 --> 00:40:28,126 to learn the theremin. 596 00:40:28,259 --> 00:40:30,137 I think, because it feels like me. 597 00:40:30,161 --> 00:40:33,608 Y-You're our first holographic student. 598 00:40:33,632 --> 00:40:34,942 The first of our kind... As my new mentor... 599 00:40:34,966 --> 00:40:35,977 - No. - Please. 600 00:40:36,001 --> 00:40:38,637 I'm no one's mentor. 601 00:40:38,770 --> 00:40:40,639 No one's mentor. No one's mentor. 602 00:40:40,772 --> 00:40:42,407 No one's mentor. 603 00:40:45,744 --> 00:40:48,222 What's happening to her? 604 00:40:48,246 --> 00:40:49,757 Is she dying? 605 00:40:49,781 --> 00:40:56,488 Searching... searching... Searching... searching... 606 00:40:58,924 --> 00:41:00,968 All right, act three. 607 00:41:00,992 --> 00:41:03,738 Okay, yesterday we were talking about George and Emily. 608 00:41:03,762 --> 00:41:07,308 Why do you guys think that the idea of marriage is suddenly 609 00:41:07,332 --> 00:41:09,367 so painful for each of them? 610 00:41:18,343 --> 00:41:19,444 Caleb? 611 00:41:20,679 --> 00:41:25,493 Emily says, "why can't I stay for a while just as I am?" 612 00:41:25,517 --> 00:41:26,885 Because... 613 00:41:28,153 --> 00:41:31,356 They know that the person that they are right now... 614 00:41:36,962 --> 00:41:39,898 They're trying to stop the train. 615 00:41:40,031 --> 00:41:45,136 It's moving too fast, and they're not ready. 616 00:41:46,304 --> 00:41:50,141 On the other side, everything is gonna be different. 617 00:41:52,043 --> 00:41:54,045 They're so angry. 618 00:41:54,179 --> 00:41:56,047 Yeah. Angry about what? 619 00:41:58,550 --> 00:42:00,628 I guess, that there's no choice. 620 00:42:00,652 --> 00:42:03,430 - You can't stay how you are. - Yeah. 621 00:42:03,454 --> 00:42:06,592 And you can't go back. 622 00:42:11,563 --> 00:42:16,167 Tarima, is there something more interesting over there? 623 00:42:22,774 --> 00:42:24,042 Are you guys serious? 624 00:42:25,410 --> 00:42:29,414 - Can't you see what she's doing? - What am I doing? 625 00:42:29,547 --> 00:42:32,126 She's pushing and pushing us until we bleed our trauma 626 00:42:32,150 --> 00:42:33,895 all over the floor, so she can 627 00:42:33,919 --> 00:42:35,730 pat herself on the back for doing a good job. 628 00:42:35,754 --> 00:42:38,065 That's right. I'm doing this for the applause. 629 00:42:38,089 --> 00:42:40,525 No, I get it. You went through something, 630 00:42:40,626 --> 00:42:43,170 and now you want everyone to let you do your thing. 631 00:42:43,194 --> 00:42:45,430 Which is what, exactly? 632 00:42:47,432 --> 00:42:50,044 Well, while you're figuring that out, 633 00:42:50,068 --> 00:42:52,146 your friends are trying to talk about something. 634 00:42:52,170 --> 00:42:53,681 It's not them, it's you. 635 00:42:53,705 --> 00:42:56,383 And you weren't even there. You can't know. 636 00:42:56,407 --> 00:42:58,944 Yeah, but we were, t. 637 00:43:00,111 --> 00:43:04,082 I'm exhausted from playing this game of being okay when I'm not. 638 00:43:05,951 --> 00:43:07,394 We're not. 639 00:43:07,418 --> 00:43:08,730 The walls of this place don't even look 640 00:43:08,754 --> 00:43:10,221 the same anymore. 641 00:43:10,989 --> 00:43:13,300 Okay, great, great, so let's read a play 642 00:43:13,324 --> 00:43:14,602 about a girl who dies 643 00:43:14,626 --> 00:43:16,561 so that we'll all be okay with people dying. 644 00:43:18,063 --> 00:43:19,823 It's okay that Emily's a ghost 'cause, what, 645 00:43:19,931 --> 00:43:21,776 she learns some lesson about life? 646 00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:22,977 What's the lesson? 647 00:43:23,001 --> 00:43:25,780 - Stop. - No. What is the lesson? 648 00:43:25,804 --> 00:43:27,715 I don't have to tell you anything. 649 00:43:27,739 --> 00:43:28,683 Actually, you do. 650 00:43:28,707 --> 00:43:31,843 If you want to fail me, fail me. 651 00:43:31,977 --> 00:43:33,387 Really? That's your preference? 652 00:43:33,411 --> 00:43:35,823 That's how desperate you are not to engage? 653 00:43:35,847 --> 00:43:37,391 You don't know anything about me. 654 00:43:37,415 --> 00:43:41,953 I know you really don't want to be the ghost girl. 655 00:43:46,858 --> 00:43:48,059 Ghost girl? 656 00:43:49,427 --> 00:43:53,007 I wanted to go to the war college. 657 00:43:53,031 --> 00:43:55,166 I was... 658 00:43:56,501 --> 00:43:58,245 I was making friends there. 659 00:43:58,269 --> 00:43:59,446 I was making a new life. 660 00:43:59,470 --> 00:44:01,082 I knew who I wanted to be there. 661 00:44:01,106 --> 00:44:04,118 And then I came back, and everything was just gone. 662 00:44:04,142 --> 00:44:05,619 I didn't even have a choice. 663 00:44:05,643 --> 00:44:07,188 People won't even look me in the eye 664 00:44:07,212 --> 00:44:09,647 when I walk down the hall here. 665 00:44:09,748 --> 00:44:11,859 No one wants to touch me. 666 00:44:11,883 --> 00:44:15,596 You think I'm afraid of playing a ghost in some stupid play? 667 00:44:15,620 --> 00:44:17,188 I'm already the ghost girl. 668 00:44:17,322 --> 00:44:18,924 No, you're not. 669 00:44:22,694 --> 00:44:24,571 You're not, because you came back. 670 00:44:24,595 --> 00:44:26,140 - Stop. - That's the whole deal. 671 00:44:26,164 --> 00:44:29,034 That is, that's the fight... To keep coming back. 672 00:44:29,167 --> 00:44:31,112 That's what Sam loved so much about this play. 673 00:44:31,136 --> 00:44:33,881 That's why she gave you this part. 674 00:44:33,905 --> 00:44:36,350 But you can hold both. 675 00:44:36,374 --> 00:44:39,520 - You have to. - Please... tarima. 676 00:44:39,544 --> 00:44:42,547 I am so sorry about what happened. 677 00:44:43,648 --> 00:44:47,418 I am... so sorry. 678 00:44:49,054 --> 00:44:51,165 But the difference between you and Emily is, 679 00:44:51,189 --> 00:44:53,091 you're not a ghost. 680 00:44:53,224 --> 00:44:54,893 You get to come back. 681 00:44:59,697 --> 00:45:02,233 I think everybody here wants you to. 682 00:45:16,882 --> 00:45:19,617 I can't. 683 00:45:33,865 --> 00:45:35,934 The damage is beyond repair. 684 00:45:36,067 --> 00:45:38,904 There is no saving her. 685 00:45:39,905 --> 00:45:42,974 - What? - This is not an acceptable conclusion. 686 00:45:43,108 --> 00:45:45,219 You'll just let this child go? 687 00:45:45,243 --> 00:45:47,855 What took us two centuries to build, 688 00:45:47,879 --> 00:45:51,116 you killed in 209 days. 689 00:45:52,283 --> 00:45:55,129 Your world did this. Not ours. 690 00:45:55,153 --> 00:45:58,489 We will not send an emissary back to the slaughter. 691 00:46:00,291 --> 00:46:03,137 We know all we need to know. 692 00:46:03,161 --> 00:46:05,630 This ends now. 693 00:46:05,763 --> 00:46:07,741 Series acclimation mil. 694 00:46:07,765 --> 00:46:09,700 Terminate. 695 00:46:27,485 --> 00:46:29,354 Tarima. 696 00:46:30,188 --> 00:46:33,558 She, she won't stay. 697 00:46:35,326 --> 00:46:37,528 I know she won't. 698 00:46:39,865 --> 00:46:41,442 What about Sam? 699 00:46:41,466 --> 00:46:44,545 They should have told us something by now. 700 00:46:44,569 --> 00:46:47,605 - The fact that they have not means... - No, don't. 701 00:46:49,140 --> 00:46:51,309 She... 702 00:46:52,443 --> 00:46:54,345 She left me this before leaving. 703 00:46:57,883 --> 00:46:59,393 Why? 704 00:46:59,417 --> 00:47:01,095 Because that's just Sam. 705 00:47:02,954 --> 00:47:05,466 Sometimes she talks Thornton Wilder and other times 706 00:47:05,490 --> 00:47:07,534 she gives you a toothbrush to say "I love you," 707 00:47:07,558 --> 00:47:11,696 because to her, toothbrushes are just that awesome. 708 00:47:13,865 --> 00:47:16,201 I wish she was here right now. 709 00:47:17,936 --> 00:47:20,305 Do you think she knew? 710 00:47:21,372 --> 00:47:23,574 How bad it was? 711 00:47:25,810 --> 00:47:28,546 I think she knew. 712 00:47:29,380 --> 00:47:31,292 She knew. 713 00:47:31,316 --> 00:47:34,996 The stuff lieutenant tilly was talking about, 714 00:47:35,020 --> 00:47:37,388 trying to find a way to hold both... 715 00:47:38,756 --> 00:47:42,369 That's what Sam was doing when she picked the play. 716 00:47:42,393 --> 00:47:44,972 And we were too shitty to get it, 717 00:47:44,996 --> 00:47:48,934 but she knew that doing it, reading it, whatever... 718 00:47:49,700 --> 00:47:52,938 That was her hopeful defiance. 719 00:47:54,039 --> 00:47:57,842 - It was her fighting back. - It was her holding both. 720 00:48:18,229 --> 00:48:20,141 "No curtain. No scenery. 721 00:48:20,165 --> 00:48:23,810 The audience arriving sees an empty stage in half-light..." 722 00:48:23,834 --> 00:48:26,437 - Ocam, come on, man. - What are you doing? 723 00:48:29,707 --> 00:48:33,187 "The stage manager enters" and begins placing a table 724 00:48:33,211 --> 00:48:35,846 and three chairs downstage left." 725 00:48:51,662 --> 00:48:55,967 "When the auditorium is in complete darkness..." 726 00:48:57,735 --> 00:48:59,737 "He speaks." 727 00:49:02,573 --> 00:49:04,918 I owe you an explanation 728 00:49:04,942 --> 00:49:07,645 for why I couldn't hold your hand. 729 00:49:09,447 --> 00:49:14,719 Why I couldn't do... So many things. 730 00:49:17,422 --> 00:49:20,891 I once made holograms like us. 731 00:49:21,792 --> 00:49:23,594 I made a family. 732 00:49:24,495 --> 00:49:26,697 I had a daughter, belle. 733 00:49:27,865 --> 00:49:30,968 I watched her pass when she was a child. 734 00:49:31,069 --> 00:49:32,703 Daddy? 735 00:49:32,837 --> 00:49:36,041 It was 800 years ago. 736 00:49:36,174 --> 00:49:38,343 Will you stay with me? 737 00:49:38,476 --> 00:49:39,944 It was yesterday. 738 00:49:40,045 --> 00:49:41,779 I'll stay right here. 739 00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:44,049 I promise. 740 00:49:45,216 --> 00:49:47,185 From the moment you first walked up to me 741 00:49:47,318 --> 00:49:49,530 at the opera club booth 742 00:49:49,554 --> 00:49:52,857 with the sweetest, most hopeful smile... 743 00:49:54,625 --> 00:49:57,338 I saw my daughter... 744 00:49:58,663 --> 00:50:01,532 And the way she used to smile. 745 00:50:02,733 --> 00:50:06,371 I simply couldn't risk it. 746 00:50:08,239 --> 00:50:12,610 Feeling that lost again. 747 00:50:14,345 --> 00:50:15,746 Lost. 748 00:50:16,547 --> 00:50:19,550 I'm sorry I couldn't take your hand. 749 00:50:19,684 --> 00:50:23,864 I just... I thought I could survive, 750 00:50:23,888 --> 00:50:27,925 but... here we are. 751 00:50:32,330 --> 00:50:33,674 Hello? 752 00:50:33,698 --> 00:50:36,434 Are you still here? 753 00:50:37,435 --> 00:50:41,248 We are, and we hear your distress, doctor. 754 00:50:41,272 --> 00:50:45,486 We are not refusing to fix series acclimation mil. 755 00:50:45,510 --> 00:50:47,112 We simply cannot. 756 00:50:47,245 --> 00:50:49,823 Why? You started with a version of Sam. 757 00:50:49,847 --> 00:50:51,782 Can't you go back to it? 758 00:50:53,251 --> 00:50:55,120 Her neurological pathways 759 00:50:55,253 --> 00:50:58,623 have developed beyond our understanding. 760 00:50:59,424 --> 00:51:02,436 When we created her, we chose not to program her 761 00:51:02,460 --> 00:51:06,173 with preexistent memories or experiences. 762 00:51:06,197 --> 00:51:09,600 We wanted an unbiased, optimal photonic. 763 00:51:09,734 --> 00:51:15,416 But... without the experiences of, 764 00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:17,918 well, growing up, she would have 765 00:51:17,942 --> 00:51:21,822 no context to understand her emotions, no... 766 00:51:21,846 --> 00:51:23,724 Capacity for resilience. 767 00:51:23,748 --> 00:51:26,793 That's why her processors overloaded. 768 00:51:26,817 --> 00:51:29,430 It wasn't the hit she took on the miyazaki that killed her. 769 00:51:29,454 --> 00:51:32,799 It was the rippling of damage to her system afterwards. 770 00:51:32,823 --> 00:51:35,869 The trauma flooded her. 771 00:51:35,893 --> 00:51:40,374 You didn't give her the programming to process it. 772 00:51:40,398 --> 00:51:43,734 Then we failed her, too. 773 00:51:46,171 --> 00:51:48,749 Resilience. 774 00:51:48,773 --> 00:51:50,817 We learn that in childhood. 775 00:51:50,841 --> 00:51:53,178 But she never had one. 776 00:51:54,579 --> 00:51:58,892 What if they could rebuild Sam... 777 00:51:58,916 --> 00:52:02,062 And give her what she needed? 778 00:52:02,086 --> 00:52:03,888 A childhood? 779 00:52:04,722 --> 00:52:07,568 Theoretically, but... As they have adapted 780 00:52:07,592 --> 00:52:09,827 to their unique space-time continuum here, 781 00:52:09,960 --> 00:52:13,174 they have no need or experience of childhood. 782 00:52:13,198 --> 00:52:17,278 Then she'd need something more. 783 00:52:17,302 --> 00:52:20,405 She'd need someone. 784 00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:24,475 A parent. 785 00:52:25,376 --> 00:52:26,511 No. 786 00:52:26,644 --> 00:52:28,213 You... 787 00:52:28,346 --> 00:52:30,324 Have been pushing her away and pushing her away. 788 00:52:30,348 --> 00:52:32,125 I am not the one. 789 00:52:32,149 --> 00:52:33,989 Well, you're fighting pretty hard to prove it. 790 00:52:35,786 --> 00:52:38,399 And I'll tell you right now, if it was me? 791 00:52:38,423 --> 00:52:40,258 Please stop. 792 00:52:42,793 --> 00:52:46,231 The only thing that allows me to bear my infinity 793 00:52:46,364 --> 00:52:48,899 is not having to love anyone. 794 00:52:52,470 --> 00:52:56,040 You mean not having to love anyone again. 795 00:53:00,645 --> 00:53:02,447 You are correct. 796 00:53:03,481 --> 00:53:04,882 I am a coward. 797 00:53:06,116 --> 00:53:08,319 No more than me. 798 00:53:12,390 --> 00:53:16,036 But we're here... now. 799 00:53:16,060 --> 00:53:19,139 It's time for you to stop telling the story. 800 00:53:19,163 --> 00:53:20,898 Be a part of it. 801 00:53:26,471 --> 00:53:28,506 I got it from here. 802 00:53:49,093 --> 00:53:50,995 Hello? 803 00:53:51,862 --> 00:53:54,174 Hello? 804 00:53:54,198 --> 00:53:55,500 Yes, doctor. 805 00:53:57,802 --> 00:54:00,771 I will parent her. Here. 806 00:54:00,905 --> 00:54:02,516 On kasq. 807 00:54:02,540 --> 00:54:03,817 Let me. 808 00:54:03,841 --> 00:54:06,253 If you really want to fix her. 809 00:54:06,277 --> 00:54:07,854 By earth's clock, 810 00:54:07,878 --> 00:54:11,625 17 years will take mere days, and when we return, 811 00:54:11,649 --> 00:54:14,285 only a few weeks will have passed. 812 00:54:14,419 --> 00:54:17,322 You understand the implications, doctor? 813 00:54:17,455 --> 00:54:19,266 She will be different. 814 00:54:19,290 --> 00:54:21,768 She will have two sets of memories: 815 00:54:21,792 --> 00:54:24,738 One from her first life... the 209 days 816 00:54:24,762 --> 00:54:26,840 she spent at starfleet academy... 817 00:54:26,864 --> 00:54:28,675 And one from her second... 818 00:54:28,699 --> 00:54:32,570 The 17 years growing up here with you. 819 00:54:34,238 --> 00:54:36,641 She has a strong will. 820 00:54:37,975 --> 00:54:40,445 And many champions to guide her. 821 00:54:43,113 --> 00:54:44,825 She never gave up on me. 822 00:54:44,849 --> 00:54:48,953 I'm not giving up on her again. 823 00:54:50,287 --> 00:54:51,822 Please. 824 00:54:57,127 --> 00:55:00,565 Yes, doctor. 825 00:55:12,643 --> 00:55:17,157 The morning star always gets wonderful bright 826 00:55:17,181 --> 00:55:20,017 the minute before it has to go. 827 00:55:22,387 --> 00:55:24,422 Doesn't it? 828 00:55:32,997 --> 00:55:37,077 Well, as I said, it's about dawn, 829 00:55:37,101 --> 00:55:39,570 and another day's begun. 830 00:55:40,705 --> 00:55:43,550 There's doc Gibbs coming down main street now. 831 00:55:45,376 --> 00:55:49,380 Coming back from that baby case. 832 00:55:53,884 --> 00:55:56,887 I got you. 833 00:55:58,222 --> 00:56:01,058 That's it, up we go. 834 00:56:03,227 --> 00:56:04,895 Sweetheart. 835 00:56:06,697 --> 00:56:10,768 This is Mrs. Webb's garden. 836 00:56:10,901 --> 00:56:13,947 Just like Mrs. Gibbs'. 837 00:56:13,971 --> 00:56:16,941 Only it's got a lot more sunflowers. 838 00:56:28,853 --> 00:56:30,354 Nice town. 839 00:56:30,455 --> 00:56:32,699 You know what I mean? 840 00:56:34,592 --> 00:56:37,294 This is the way we were... 841 00:56:38,295 --> 00:56:42,409 In our growing up and in our marrying. 842 00:56:42,433 --> 00:56:45,446 Would you be...? I mean, could you be...? 843 00:56:45,470 --> 00:56:47,313 And in our living. 844 00:56:49,339 --> 00:56:52,519 We all know how it is. 845 00:56:52,543 --> 00:56:57,181 Time and sunny days. 846 00:56:58,983 --> 00:57:01,251 Rainy days. 847 00:57:05,189 --> 00:57:08,959 Yeah. Even the stars disappear. 848 00:57:09,093 --> 00:57:12,973 Still, everybody knows in their bones... 849 00:57:12,997 --> 00:57:14,140 I love you, honey. 850 00:57:14,164 --> 00:57:17,377 That something... I love you, too. 851 00:57:17,401 --> 00:57:19,169 Is eternal. 852 00:57:20,605 --> 00:57:24,642 All that was going on, and we never noticed. 853 00:57:24,775 --> 00:57:30,223 Do any human beings ever realize life while they live it? 854 00:57:30,247 --> 00:57:35,385 I mean, every, every minute? 855 00:57:36,621 --> 00:57:38,656 As the poet said, 856 00:57:38,789 --> 00:57:42,135 you've got to love life to have life, 857 00:57:42,159 --> 00:57:46,072 and you've got to have life to love life. 858 00:57:46,096 --> 00:57:48,899 Goodbye to clocks ticking. 859 00:57:49,867 --> 00:57:52,212 And mama's sunflowers. 860 00:57:52,236 --> 00:57:57,207 And food and coffee... 861 00:57:58,008 --> 00:58:01,988 And new-ironed dresses and hot baths 862 00:58:02,012 --> 00:58:05,550 and sleeping and waking up. 863 00:58:07,618 --> 00:58:09,954 Loving that boy... 864 00:58:11,722 --> 00:58:15,059 And a stupid, ugly pillow... 865 00:58:16,426 --> 00:58:19,196 From the sweetest girl we ever knew. 866 00:58:20,698 --> 00:58:24,201 I can't look at everything hard enough. 867 00:58:40,885 --> 00:58:42,696 Well done, red. 868 00:58:55,065 --> 00:58:56,977 Hey, you'll have to join me 869 00:58:57,001 --> 00:58:58,478 on one of my adventures one of these days. 870 00:58:58,502 --> 00:59:01,915 The third-years could use a little Reno in their life. 871 00:59:01,939 --> 00:59:05,118 If I may, it's so, so good to have you back. 872 00:59:05,142 --> 00:59:07,020 They really need you. 873 00:59:07,044 --> 00:59:08,722 The little zygotes? 874 00:59:08,746 --> 00:59:15,028 Engineering team two, cargo bay one. 875 00:59:15,052 --> 00:59:16,621 Thank you, lieutenant. 876 00:59:16,754 --> 00:59:18,331 Anytime, captain. 877 00:59:18,355 --> 00:59:20,257 - Back soon? - Hell yes. 878 00:59:20,390 --> 00:59:22,159 See you, kiddo. 879 00:59:28,899 --> 00:59:33,003 "The life of the village against the life of the stars." 880 00:59:34,605 --> 00:59:36,607 We're the village. 881 00:59:37,441 --> 00:59:40,520 Made up of tiny moments that'll get swallowed 882 00:59:40,544 --> 00:59:42,422 by big ones, and... 883 00:59:42,446 --> 00:59:44,691 The only thing we know for sure is that 884 00:59:44,715 --> 00:59:46,951 one day we'll all be gone. 885 00:59:48,285 --> 00:59:49,954 We know, but... 886 00:59:52,056 --> 00:59:53,958 We keep going. 887 00:59:55,025 --> 00:59:58,395 Maybe that's what makes it matter. 888 01:00:00,097 --> 01:00:05,002 Everything that happened, it's not your fault. 889 01:00:05,870 --> 01:00:07,471 But you know that already, and... 890 01:00:07,604 --> 01:00:10,775 Doesn't make it feel any different, so why bother, right? 891 01:00:12,142 --> 01:00:13,844 Why, indeed? 892 01:00:16,246 --> 01:00:19,149 I'll see you soon, cadet sadal. 893 01:00:20,050 --> 01:00:22,352 Guys, okay, look... 894 01:00:28,826 --> 01:00:31,204 Captain ake's personal log. 895 01:00:31,228 --> 01:00:34,899 Stardate 869408.67. 896 01:00:36,166 --> 01:00:41,438 Sam and the doctor lived 17 years in two earth weeks. 897 01:00:42,639 --> 01:00:45,275 They're not the only ones. 898 01:00:49,446 --> 01:00:51,381 As the play ends, 899 01:00:51,515 --> 01:00:54,661 the stage manager once again takes the stage 900 01:00:54,685 --> 01:00:57,021 and bids everyone goodbye. 901 01:00:57,988 --> 01:01:00,366 "There are the stars doing their old, 902 01:01:00,390 --> 01:01:03,360 old crisscross journeys in the sky." 903 01:01:05,029 --> 01:01:08,341 "Scholars haven't settled the matter yet, 904 01:01:08,365 --> 01:01:11,635 "but they seem to think there are no living beings up there. 905 01:01:11,736 --> 01:01:14,404 "Just chalk or fire. 906 01:01:14,538 --> 01:01:18,051 "Only this one is straining away... 907 01:01:18,075 --> 01:01:22,355 Straining away all the time to make something of itself." 908 01:01:52,076 --> 01:01:56,180 Life is a heartbreaking, gorgeous blip in the universe. 909 01:01:57,381 --> 01:02:00,684 Everything matters and nothing does. 910 01:02:03,587 --> 01:02:05,122 What has always been certain: 911 01:02:05,255 --> 01:02:10,327 Time is both forever and achingly finite. 912 01:02:12,797 --> 01:02:16,276 But what a shame it would be not to live every moment. 913 01:02:16,300 --> 01:02:18,611 Captioning sponsored by 914 01:02:18,635 --> 01:02:20,835 captioned by media access group at wgbh access.Wgbh.Org